Still Pitching a No-Hitter

We had our official first sonogram today. The good news is we saw good growth and heard a pretty heartbeat. The doctor is still a little baffled at the slow initial growth and is proceeding with caution. We have another sonogram on 5/18 and we need to see big growth that day. It's interesting, a friend asked me last night how I was feeling and I told her that I was Trying not to panic even though every single visit and test freaks me out. Like. I don't even like saying I'm pregnant. In fact, I keep the ultrasound pics we have gotten in a sealed envelope and never look at them. My anxiety level is off the charts even though I try to remain calm and cool. Your prayers don't go unnoticed, unfelt, or unappreciated. Most days, they're all that get us through. Love you all! 

Sisterhood

Before I start the meat of this post, let me  say that my progesterone test today came back at a 19.4 which is up from a 16 last week. Thank you for the prayers! And, speaking of prayers, I am overwhelmed by the love and faithfulness you are showing us. When I felt the nudge God was giving me to write about our infertility struggles I selfishly thought He was asking me to share as a cathartic thing for me. I was so wrong. 

Infertility is a sorority no one asks to join and often we don't share our stories with our sisters out of fear or shame or whatever. But, I have found amazing support from friends who have been where I am. They have encouraged, prayed, and cried with me. They have inspired me and helped me through some ugly days. Without the sisterhood I would be lost and broken. God asked me to share our story and along the way  I have been covered in so much love and prayer from those who have been where I am as well as those who have such huge hearts full of empathy and care for us. We feel your prayers every day and we are blessed to have you on this journey with us. 

Hurdles

Rita is an amazing nurse. She called me in today because she could tell I was freaking out. We have a heartbeat!! All looks good. We've upped progesterone injections a little and will check it again on Thursday and we have an ultrasound next Wednesday. Please keep praying. We've jumped one hurdle, but there are a few more to clear! 

News.

This morning I called in to schedule my ultrasound and again I got the nurse that isn't my favorite. She said some things that got me a little nervous, so after they made an appointment for next week (so far away), I asked to have my regular nurse call me. She called a minute ago and suggested I come in today to check things out. Y'all. I'm not feeling good right now...not sure if we're going to get good news today. Please. Please pray. 

No-Hitter

I had another test today, and a nurse (not my usual nurse) called back and seemed a little baffled. My numbers continue to rise and look good, but because of how low they started there's still a little bit of confusion. I call tomorrow to set up a sonogram for next week. Please be in prayer for us as we wait and as we endure a sonogram. For us, they're not all that fun anymore. We've seen heartbeats before, only to go back a week later and see nothing. A friend asked me the other day when we'd finally feel secure, and I just shrugged. There have been so many highs and lows on this journey that we literally just try to make it through the day. Please don't think we're not excited because we are. We sooooooo are. But it all feels kind of like we're pitching a no-hitter and it's just the third inning. Thank you all for everything. You will never know what your texts, prayers, and love mean to us 

Thank you!

Thank you, thank you, thank you! We have been overwhelmed and blessed an amazed by the love and prayers you have given us. Your words of encouragement and love bring me to tears on a daily basis. For so long, I kept everything in because I didn't want anyone to think I was weak. But then, I clearly remember God leading me to open up and share our story. We have been blessed unimaginably by that decision. Our results are in...(do I sound like Ryan Seacrest?) 2,039. Amazing!! I'll have blood drawn again next Thursday, so please keep praying. In our situation, it's hard to ever feel like we're out of the woods, but today we feel encouraged! Love you all!!

Prayin' for 1,000

So I just got off the phone with the nurse. My numbers went up considerably, but the numbers we had today were what we would have wanted the first time I tested. We'll test again next Friday and we're praying for 1,000. The nurse said, and I quote, "we're just gonna pray over it and get a baby." I don't have to tell you that I started crying. So, as it stands, we're not out of the woods yet. Keep praying.