Okay so you know when reporters are interviewing a coach about this year's team he'll be like "Well, Bob, we've got a lot of young, raw talent this year, I'm excited to see how we fair in the conference, but I kinda look at this as a rebuilding year. Our guys are still kinda green, but man watch out for us next year..."
That's how I feel after the break-up. This is a rebuilding year...I'll come out of this thing with my head held high, my dignity in tact and more beautiful and fabulous than when I started...rock on!
Really, I'm handling it all pretty well...considering we'd dated for almost two years and known each other about three years...I'm handling this not being around him or talking to him thing pretty well. I'm kind of excited now to see what God has in store for me. I look at it and I think "Wow...the next guy...the forever guy...he'll have it all...and I won't have to question him...or doubt him...or feel insecure about him." That's a pretty cool thought...and that makes me happy.
Sure I have rough days...Sunday nights seem to be the worst for me, so it was even worse this Sunday when he called...but I'm doing okay...I'm doing fine...I miss him, but I miss the way he was when he was good...and honestly...that wasn't very often...so I can learn from this and move on. I'm not wasting time on those who don't care about me. I'm not wasting time being the only one making it work. It's all about me for now and I'm rebuilding me...that's a great feeling.
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