I'm not even sure I'm standing

Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still. The expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives. ~Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatmoy~


H is new to my life, but she brought me this quote, and I love her for it.

The unexpected is what changes our lives.

Think about that...right now...think about that.

The unexpected turn you took in your life, the unexpected love, the unexpected birth. Those things are what made you who you are right now.

The expected doesn't change you, it just falls into place and keeps your regularly scheduled life running right on track, but those unexpected twists and turns, those shaky moments when we're unsure of our lives and our hearts and where we're headed and what road we should take are the things that form our lives.

It's so easy to see why we gravitate towards the expected...it's safe.

It's easy to stay in an unhappy place in your life because at least you know what you're getting; if you were to venture out and let the unexpected happen to you, who knows what would happen? The fear of the unknown keeps us stuck in the expected.

Unexpected is happening to me a lot right now.

His actions are unexpected...his words are unexpected...my feelings are unexpected, and I don't know yet where this unexpected road will lead...because although everything he's saying and doing is unexpected, he is not. I don't know what it all means yet...I'm still sorting out what I can live with and what I can't...what I can deal with forever, and what I don't want to. See, even my expected is unexpected...goodness, I'm a mess...

So, I'm not steady. I'm not still. And I'm not even sure I'm standing.